What am I going to do? My wingman, my baby is heading off to preschool. We've spoken about it in the past week, it's been quite a quick process. I think it's worse this time around as it's my last baby that is growing up and starting new ventures. Whenever any of the other children started preschool I had a baby to keep me busy, this time I'm left on my own to do my own thing, for a few hours at least.
Before Christmas I spoke to the OH about Thing 5 starting nursery but we never really settled on a definite conclusion on this conversation. I think the OH sees it that because I'm at home there is no need for him to go. I think he needs to go to get out and socialise with other children and have a bit of time away from me. Don't get me wrong, I love being at home with him but there comes a time when they need to spread their wings and fly the nest for a little while.
After the OH spent 2 weeks off over the Christmas period he agreed that Thing 5 did need to get out into a different environment for a little while, it would do him good. So last week I called a local preschool expecting to put him on a waiting list. Thing 3 had attended the preschool so I knew the staff and the setting and was happy to put his name down. Once the call had been made I found myself picking up forms and picking sessions for him, they had spaces and I was happy for him to start straight away.
So with the forms filled in and a visit due this Thursday afternoon I'm left with 6 hours to myself each week. On one hand I'm looking forward to it, it's been a long time since I was child free for a while although I've got plenty to do at home to keep me busy but on the other hand he's my last child, my baby. He's growing up fast, if I let him go it means he doesn't need me for those few hours he's not here.
The preschool is attached to the Infant School that Thing 2 and 3 attended and Thing 4 is currently attending. Thing 5 will also attend the school so he will hopefully make friends that will continue through the early years with him too.
I'm excited for him, I'm sure he will be fine. We've spoken about preschool and the things he will do and he seems quite excited. This might change once he realises that Mummy won't be staying or he might run off without even thinking about me.
On his first day I will walk home to a quiet house and possibly have a little sob into a (hot) cup of tea! However, as long as he is fine when I leave and I know I've left him in good hands, I know it's time to let go just for a little while and I will look forward to collecting him and spending the rest of my day with him.
It's the start of a new chapter in our lives. Our last one is growing up and heading out on his own, There is definitely no more babies on the horizon and I am very much looking forward to having some time to myself and not being Mummy for a few hours, It's been a long time since it's been that way.