2018 wasn't a great year and I was so glad to say goodbye to it. 2019 hasn't started the best way either and I am one hugely stressed Mumma at the moment.
Nothing that back to school, pay day and some alcohol won't fix. How I've made it this far through parenthood without a drink still amazes me and others.
So 2019 the year of my 40s, arghhhhhh. And yet in 2018 I still managed to become a grandma, pretty impressive.
This year, as with every other year is the year of slimming, money saving and more me time. Which I think is what I said in 2015, 2015, 2016, 2017 and 2018. Oh well, one year we will get it done properly, maybe this year is the year?!
I don't want to set specific targets, I don't want to expect myself to achieve all I set out to do and that may be not the way I should be thinking. I should be stronger and say I WILL achieve everything this year. I aim to be slimmer, I hope to save some pennies and get out and about more with the children and I hope to maybe have a day or two to myself too without feeling guilty about the kids and Dadof5 left at home.
Maybe it should be I DEFINITELY WILL to all three things. I have lost weight before as shown here in a previous blog post, My previous weight loss journey 2014. If I have done it once I can do it again and hopefully keep it off this time? I just have to be in the right mindset and hopefully this year it will happen, again!
2019 sees big changes and changes I don't think I am ready for. Turning 40 as mentioned above and Thing 5, my youngest, starts Junior school. This may not seem a big thing to many but he is my youngest. I have never had my youngest child be this old! I always have a baby and toddler to keep me busy. I don't want this to happen. I don't want him to grow up and I certainly don't want to finally leave the Infant school which I have been part of for the past 12 years. Change scares me, Dadof5 is blissfully unaware of this and keeps chirping on about how wonderful it will be to have him in Junior school, how fab it is that the children are growing up and getting older whilst I am a sobbing mess about it all. Oh and by the way, the children growing up doesn't mean life is getting easier, more about that in a separate blog post!
This year I plan to get out and about more whether it be days out or weekends away. See places we haven't seen before as well as visit much loved places where we all like to go.
Thing 2 is going through her GCSEs this year so we will be limited as to when we go anywhere. Yes I am usually a bad parent who takes their children out of school to go on holiday but with this being a crucial year for her I won't be doing so. I am also sure it would be frowned upon if we leave her at home and go away without her!
The Things are growing fast too. Thing 5, our youngest, will turn 7, Thing 4 turns 10, Thing 3 will be 13 and Thing 2 will be 16.
I am so not ready for 2019, I am a few weeks too late in getting started and motivated with anything and the start back to school hasn't gone too well either.
However, over the next few weeks I hope to turn it around and get started as I mean to go on. Positive, upbeat and motivated. I will also try and blog more this year too so watch out for more regular updates on the Things, days out, home improvement and maybe a few more Mumma meltdowns too!
For now, pass me some alcohol and leftover Christmas chocolates.